I’m attempting to be diligent about writing in my blog frequently so be prepared to hear about all my little neurosis during my writing/query adventure! 😛
Now that I’ve finally completed a good draft of my book, The Dreamer, I’m suffering from writer’s panic. I don’t know if that’s an actual thing like writer’s block but it’s happening to me. I’m currently questioning every little aspect of my series.
Did I write this from the right perspective? I chose to write my book in the third person omniscient point of view, which means I’m writing from the character’s perspective, hovering outside the story…kind of like a god fly that knows all that’s buzzing around the room. Most YA is written in the first person, which makes it much more personal since it’s inside the character’s head. I chose to not write this particular story that way for several reasons, one of which is that each chapter bounces to different characters. Most of my others are in the first person. Anyways, that’s only one of the things I’m questioning.
I LOVE science fiction!! I also LOVE young adult stuff. Why does that combination end up being one of the more challenging markets in publishing? I’ve always wanted to write a fun, exciting, epic page-turning SF series that was super-readable and not so intimidating to delve into. Yes, I was one of those kids that read Dune and Foundation starting in middle school and I also noticed I was one of the very few. I liked Star Wars but was a certified Trekkie. 🖖 Star Wars always seemed fun but also too goofy and I wished there was a smart space story centered around teens.
Am I going to be editing this book for the rest of my life? Maybe one more edit and it’ll be perfect! Fifteen years ago I started writing that story and it has evolved so much since then. Fifteen years of creating, tweaking, giving up, starting over, drawing maps, inventing alien languages, adding characters, killing off characters, and also writing whole other books, all for what? Finally, a couple years ago I decided to completely focus on this series because the characters had become real people to me, like actual friends and I couldn’t give up on them. Also, I felt like the story was meaningful and each character had a purpose that needed to be shared.
Is there too much romance? This isn’t a love story! My series is totally a love story. During these two years, I also added more to the romance element. For a long time, I avoided the romance part of the book because I didn’t want it to overshadow the premise, but it felt like a huge chunk of the universe was missing. There was hints of crushes and love, but I didn’t want to make it all about that. I couldn’t believe how much I was missing out while suppressing these characters’ feelings for each other. Once I let them just “feel” I fell in love with the multiple love stories in this series. I remember crushes and relationships being so raw back in my teens and early twenties, filled with awkwardness, lust, and the end-of-the-world feeling I would get if someone rejected me or there was some big change. Mix all that with telepathic superpowers, aliens, galactic pirates, space battles, a sentient stone, and time travel and you have my book!
There are so many questions and doubts floating around my head the past week that I can’t even think straight. I’m still excited, hopeful, and nauseated about this whole journey. I’m mainly excited for all of you (the handful that are following and the rest of the thousands (?) of future fans) to read it one day.
I could go on all day about my writer’s panic but for now, I have to pick up my daughter from her after-school ‘Chocolate Creations’ class where she recently admitted that she wished it was a ‘Vanilla Creations’ class and that she wasn’t the biggest fan of chocolate. She has numerous “non-problems” such as this. Her dad never has a problem partaking in whatever creation she comes home with. 😂
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